BREATHE!

*takes a deep breath and exhale*

I had not realised that i had been holding my breath until after i called my mom. After talking to her, i felt a huge tonne of weight had just been lifted off my shoulders.


I don't remember feeling quite as lightheaded after an exam. I practically felt i was on air. Is that how it feels when one is drunk and high on drugs?

Anyhow, it's a day after exams. And i remember promising to update my blog whenever i am free to. Funnily enough, the free-er i am, the less inspiration i have to write about anything. The ideas, the urge to write, to plan and do anything comes to my mind when i am supposed to be stressing over exams. Or at least, when i should be getting ready for it. Not stressing.

It's annoying that my mind whirls away with endless plans to add into my list of "Things to do when bored" when there i am trying to concentrate and tell myself not to get distracted. Oh, don't laugh. Yes. I admit i have a list of things to do when i am at wits end trying to figure out what to do with the amount of time i have in my hands. I am that easily distracted. *sob*

However, like i have mentioned to some, this semester has been like a tornado that came and swept me off my feet; dragging me along with whatever that is in the way into the powerful spiral energy. It has been a mess. Or, was. Given that we have ended the semester (finally!), i am experiencing the aftermath and in the midst of cleaning the mess that had been created.

I know i should not be blaming or relying on the external environment and external changes that i do not have the power to control and alter to suit my needs but it really doesn't help that my brother was not around throughout the exam period. Perhaps it's due to the fact that he has never failed to lift my spirits when i am down and unsure of myself. He has this knack of knocking sense into my numb head and cheer me up anytime. Anyone who knows him would say that he has some sort of magnetic pull that attracts everybody to him. And i really mean EVERYbody. That guy's got charisma! And when he speaks, everyone stops and listens. It's amazing how he does it. And he is the best when everyone is busy talking and there i am trying to butt in to put a few smart sentences in and he would notice it immediately and listens to me. That, ladies and gentlemen, is my dearest bro. :D

But wonderful news is, HE'S BACK!! Or going to be! :D We'll be expecting him today and i can't wait!! For at least a week or two, we'll be hearing alot, and i mean ALOT of stories from him!! Wait, since he has been away for 2 weeks, it'll probablly take him a whole month to continously entertain us! xD

On another note, whilst i am in the mood to thank people, i would like to mention that Chu Ian deserves my biggest thanks. :) I have no idea how he managed to listen to me being silly and pouring out my frustrations to him throughout the entire exam period! Even I got irritated with myself and would've gone insane with myself. But he has just been truly amazing, patient and incredible. :) I could not have asked for more. :) *hugs*

Also, to my newfound friends who have been so dear to me -Tze Yuen and Yee Mei, you guys have helped me so much. By being there for me and being so kind and helpful was more than i could have asked for in a friend. Thank you both for being such great friends! ;)

Of course, to Tak Leong and occasionally Nico, for being so entertaining. LOL! You both make my day with the things you guys say and do. As for Mr Nice Tak Leong, thank you for being such a sport to allow us to poke fun at you occasionally. You are wayyyy too nice you know? :D But it's good to know that there are nice innocent people out there. xD You're a great friend. :)

And to save the best for last, thank you Mommy! :D You make me wonder whether i can ever be like you - a best friend and a mother to your children and such a loving wife and sister. I am forever grateful for having you as my mother and best friend. :)

Alrighto! i think this is a pretty long post, so i'll save the rest for another time!

Till then, enjoy your well-earned holidays dear readers! :D

XOXO, AJ